I have missed blogging! It took me forever to find my password and verification code. Long story short I am on my 3rd phone in a year and I sold the original one that had my codes on it. Thank goodness for iCloud backups. So anyways, what’s going on? Anything new? Master and I have slowed down on bondage nights, which is fine, but I still crave that submission. He found this place near our house that teaches rope tying and as soon as we get a free weekend we are going to check it out. I have a question for you’ll…what is your favorite part of submission or dominating your sub?
I have read over the year that if a slave is unable to deep throat, that their Master will teach them how. Totally never bought into that hogwash. You either can or you can’t. However, I just recently learned how to do it (without Master’s help), and I am so in love with it. It’s a shiny new toy and I just want to “play” with it over and over again. Luckily for me, He is willing to let me do it all I want…
So it’s been awhile since I have blogged about anything, and unfortunately this blog won’t be anything special other than to post just because I’m trying to avoid punishment for not doing it.
Horrid horrid ruler.
No, really. That’s what I want. I want to be tied up, tightly. It’s been a long time since Master and I have played, and I’ve asked that tonight be a play night. I think he might do that. So I was tasked with blogging about being tied up and how I feel in the rope. Honestly? I feel helpless. But I also feel more like I should be fighting him on things (even though I know I’m not supposed to).
Being tied up isn’t degrading, and maybe it isn’t supposed to be, I’m not quite sure on that, but it does make me feel something, I mean other than helpless, I just don’t know what it is. Master is quite amazing by feeding into my desire to explore and try new things.
So as I am driving to work this morning, I realize that I am completely lucky that Master loves me the way he does. I certainly don’t make it easy but nonetheless I am grateful.
I have been longing for a night of love-making and a play night. But two things have dawned on me, one, I don’t technically know what making love actually consists of, and two, Am I really missing out by not knowing? I love nights with Master when he plays with me. The sex that follows afterwards is amazing and completely fulfilling. But what about the tender side of sex? I don’t know what that is. I’ve always fed my primal need before I have fed my heart, and maybe that is a mistake that will haunt me later in life, but I don’t regret it.
Is it even possible to make love on a D/s relationship? Or am I just being a silly schoolgirl…
I’m laying here in bed and Master has my egg on high while he is helping a friend with his Autocad class. I am dying to cum, and Master let me cum once while I was watching porn, but I can’t cum hard enough to satisfy myself. I need him to take me hard and fast over the edge.