Oh boy….

I totally screwed up with Master the other day, and he has promised to take it out on me. The worst part? He won’t tell me what my punishment is, nor when I am going to receive it. This is causing me severe anxiety, but maybe that’s part of his plan. He is out fishing today so I have all day to think about what I did, and hope that maybe he had such a fun time today that he has forgiven me. Fingers crossed.

Playtime activities

I have been tasked with writing about my favorite playtime activity with Master. Decisions decisions. I mean, I’ve made it very apparent that I love a good spanking. I’ve convinced Master to try golden showers, but we’ve only done that once so far (that’s psychologically degrading for me and I want more of that). But when it comes down to a favorite, I’m going to have to go with edging and spanking combined.

For Christmas I received my purple egg…I love my egg…and it has this great edging vibration that Master loves just as much. Usually he will allow me to wear it while we are watching Walking Dead (and I end up zoning out mid-episode). He laughs, I plead for release, it’s all quite amazing, but it’s also the longest 45 minutes of my life.

Add spanking along with the edging and oh my gosh…we haven’t done it yet, but I’m hoping that this will provoke Master to try something new soon. I want Master to push my limits, to take me past what I think I can handle, and then push me further.

Postponed playtime and overdue punishment

For the past couple days, Master and I have had grand plans to have a serious play night. But it hasn’t happened. Why? Life. That’s why. Please don’t get me wrong, I”m not complaining, I absolutely love our life outside of our M/s relationship. Master treats me so very lovingly every minute of the day, but i seriously need a night where I am treated as his slave. With everything going on, I continue to forget my place in His house. I have failed at things I am to do and how I am expected to act. Last night was particularly horrid for my behavior, and for that Master, I am sorry. I fully expect to be punished to the fullest extent of your desire.

Help is definitely needed

This has not been a good week for me. I am failing miserably at being a good sub for Master. Some days I can get away with being bratty, but lately I have had zero respect for the rules. And it’s not that I don’t want to behave, because I do, it’s just that we have been so busy that I haven’t had time to remember my place. So how do I rectify this situation? Do I ask for more training? See if Master will double my punishments? Let me know what you think, any suggestion is greatly appreciated.

Oh the web I have weaved…

It’s been a while since I have had a chance to post anything. I hope you all had an amazing holiday season. Master and I celebrated in grand romantic style which was heavenly. However, I have about 40+ spankings with the ruler coming to me tonight for not completing my daily task (only like a weeks worth), plus all the infractions I have committed.

Master may not know that I have this many coming, or maybe he does and just doesn’t want to clue me in. Either way my backside will be welted and sore later tonight.

Jump start

With this week being the close and beginning of another year, I took it upon myself to kick off my New Years resolutions early. Yesterday and last night, I behaved the best I probably ever have since we started. The problem? It’s very hard for me not to flirt and joke with Master. Granted this is a different kind of flirting, and oh the feeling he gets from it, but it’s still hard. I know over time that this will be easier and become who I really am and want to be, but it’s a foreign concept right now.

While I still have many more things I would like to accomplish in 2015, this by far is the most important one to me and I hope you continue to stick around to watch my progress.

Happy New Year!

“Ohhhhhhhhhhhhh” Em Gee

The best Christmas present for me this year was my wireless egg I have been wanting for what seems like forever. Master was generous enough to get it for me. But this thing is the Devil in the best way possible. It has 10 settings or so, and last night Master found the best one for him. It allowed him to edge me for over an hour. Longest hour of my life btw, but in the end it was totally worth it. When Master finally allowed me to cum, it was explosive and loud and so very satisfying.

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It’s funny to me how one little phrase can change your life, thoughts and actions. Today I am finding myself a bit more calm, a bit more respectful, and definitely a lot less bratty.

In a conversation with Master today I expressed this same sentiment and how last night has changed how I feel. The release I usually find in the pain and pleasure he gives me was replaced with submitting to him verbally. It’s as though a weight has been taken off of me. I can only hope that this feeling continues as our relationship develops.

Oh the trouble I am in for

 

Master has assigned me a daily chore. Failure to complete said chore will result in 5 punishment spankings with the ruler. I haven’t completed them yet this week, and it’s not because I want to get in trouble, it’s just that I have been so busy I forget. I know he gives me all day to get them done, but my job is constantly on the go like his, and when I do get to sit down at my desk, I’m on the phone or figuring out how I’m going to meet the needs of the customers. Either way, I am up to 15 so far this week.

On a side note, there was a phrase that Master wanted me to say the other night, and I couldn’t bring myself to say it, which in turn earned me spankings for disobeying. I asked him to work with me on saying it, because I truly would like to say it, and he promised me that I would either say it, or my safe word next time we play! Ouch!